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Dec 27, 2022
End of year musings
Dec 12, 2022
Planning
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Oct 26, 2022
Waiting for my new filofax
Property of Stormberry From my shopping cart at filofax UK |
Oct 9, 2022
Little Grievances
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This year she has continued in the Government, so she has been slipping back with her thesis work, and so our professors' suggested she came here, away from work, so she could advance and talk directly with the professors. And she did so this past week. I took two weeks of vacations (because I had all that time to spend), and in the first one I made sure to plan a lovely stay for her, with a reservation at Astral Speakeasy, a hidden bar with a Speakeasy bar feeling to it, but also a trip to our favorite metaphysical store, a coffee tour, a trip to our Art Museum, Pumpkin Spice Latte at Starbucks (there's no Starbucks in her country), and coffee at my favorite French pastry shop.
Sep 30, 2022
Words are wild things
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This month almost went by without me blogging, even though I was trying to blog at least twice a month. Who said that thing about words being wild things? Maybe I'm mixing up the quote and it goes more like "hearts are wild thing, which is why they are kept in cages". What a horrible idea. Wild things should be left free.
These past weeks have been crazy, as they usually are, but this time mostly in the sense that things seem to be unraveling at work. It's like a giant, long Mercury Retrograde has been shadowing everything, or maybe as if we were experiencing a particularly nasty epidemic of "stupid". When so many people around me behaves or speaks in such insanely stupid ways, I always find myself questioning myself about whether it's not me, that people can't be that stupid, nor is it statistically possible that so many people, being so stupid could be gathered in such a small space. Many years ago I had a nervous breakdown for this very same reason: I was overworked and it felt like no matter what I did, it never got ahead because everybody around me kept doing stupid things.
Back then I've got sick, and I remember my psychiatrist telling me "yes, all of them are stupid". Oddly, that wasn't reassuring, because if it would have been all in my head, I could work on it, but I can't work on curing other people from "stupid".
With time I realized that there was a reason why people were stupid around me, and the truth was worse: many people either had accepted jobs they were not prepared for, and so they were filling a position in which they had no idea what should they really be doing, which led to either micromanaging or to making things up. Others had accepted jobs they were originally prepared for, but then felt no need to refresh their knowledge and by then all they had of their knowledge was a diploma. And finally, some were there because they wanted to use their position to advance their personal agenda and couldn't care less about what happened to others or the company itself.
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These days are threatening, and things have happened that shake the unsteady ground on which the spurious fortunes of many have been built. This isn't necessarily good for those who have worked honestly for what they have achieved, but it's certainly shaking a lot of people. Well, these past weeks have been like life had dealt the Tower Card over and over and over for these people. Sure, from time to time I have decided not to hold my tongue - like the time someone tried to claim credit on a work fo mine, saying we had done it together and I disabused the person of that notion, in front of everybody telling her that no, that work was entirely mine and her "contributions" were not in it, and as a matter of fact, I had received no contribution from her or anybody else. Oh, right, because I'm now such a meanie that I don't consider a "Yes, I agree" as a contribution for the analysis of a 200+ page document.
And so, as the year slides on, and I grow older and wiser (and "wiser" in me might look mean to some, but then again, witches have always been considered mean by those who feel threatened by a free thinking person willing to standup for themselves), and it seems that the Tower energy is also sliding in, showing posers the extent of their lies.
You learn in society to mind your words, to be careful, to measure what you say, and often you wonder why so many people tend to avoid confrontation. I am one to avoid conflict. But then, if words can be accepted as wild things, and we are also encouraged to write and journal and express ourselves, I think we should also stand up and speak out. There is a difference between insulting and telling the truth, between being mean and telling your opinion. Some people might take the truth as an insult, but that only reflects on how they see what they do, and show that maybe they lie to themselves in order to pretend that their bad actions are actually "smart" or "strategical". It might also reflect how some people are afraid of the thoughts of others when they can't tolerate other people's opinions.
But also, insulting isn't telling the truth: insulting is insulting. Being mean isn't having an opinion, it's being mean. Truth is easily proved by confrontation: show facts, show data. Opinions - when you really have them - can be explained and shown how you've got there. And also, an opinion is a thought, not an imposition on others. Opinions are not threatened by the opinions of others.
Words are wild things, but they are not to be caged, they are not to be repressed, but they are to be considered, thought well and understood.
Aug 8, 2022
Organizing Thoughts
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Jul 15, 2022
Reflections & Moving On
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Jun 21, 2022
Mid-year filofaxing
First of all, blessed Litha to all! Today is the longest day of the year, which not everybody celebrates, but still, in the Northern Hemisphere we have the day with more sun light hours of the whole year. In the Northern Hemisphere they have the day with the fewer hours of daylight of the year. However, all in all, we still have - no matter where we are - 24 hours in the day, for us to spend, plan, fill, waste as we desire or as we could.
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Each first Sunday, as you may know, there is a Philofaxy Meeting via Skype, were we talk about all sorts of topics, and there´s always something about planners. Not to mention that it also happens that you get the chance to pick the brains of true Filofax Connoisseurs such as Steve Morton (THE Mr. Philofaxy) and Graham Rhind among others. For instance, the other day I was pondering about my current planner, an A5 Filofax Malden Ocher, which you can see in this picture, and which always tends to fatten through the year like a Christmas piglet or a Thanksgiving turkey. You see, as the world continues to change, and I had been going out to coffeeshops in order to work on my thesis - the change of scenary does wonders for my inspiration. However, since I haven´t been going to the office daily as in the pre-pandemic days, each time I go out I have to ensamble my bag, and it is a struggle, not to mention I always forget something. One of my struggles recently was the planner question. My filofax is so big and so heavy, it practically fills my whole bag, and if I add my laptop, and a book, it breaks my back.
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So, as I was podering on this question, I started thinking about going back to the Personal Size. But I wanted more. I have old binders in Personal size, which was the first size I tried out with Filofax, but those are ruined. I really "worked them to the bone", so none of them are in... working condition. Now, I do have another one, a Saul Book personal size binder a friend gifted me, but that one is so pretty, so delicate, that I don't have the heart to push it through the kind of treatment I normally give to my planners. So, aditional to a personal size, I was thinking I needed something durable, but also something that can, somehow be compressed. That meant basically a personal size, leather, zippered filofax.
Through the Philofaxy meetings I've got to learn of some of the options I had in that area that fit my requirements, and from then on, I went on researching. In that regard I'm still pondering on my options and what would really work for me, as it sure will end up growing big, and I know I tend to put strain also on the rings themselves, and personal sizes usually don't have rings that go past 23 mm (it was 23 mm, right?). At the same time, I have to consider the reduction in the page size. I know I can work my planning in a Personal size, but when it comes to the pages for note taking, the size is too inconvenient, specially for someone who takes copious notes as me.
I'll probably consider this matter from here to october-november when the time comes to order the new inserts, or the new planner.
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Through the meetings, I also had the chance to talk to Graham Rhind, with wnom we have had an interesting conversation regarding planning systems such as the Chronodex and all it's variations. One thing I've seen in his videos (he has a YouTube channel), is how he integrates his version of the Chonodex in his inserts. He calls his version Zirkuluak, and it's basically a ring and a half for a whole of 17 hours of daily planning, from 6 am (or 6.00 hrs) to midnight. It takes a bit more space than a regular chronodex, a spirodex or my simple concentric rings, both in 24 hour options and the one I use starting at 4 am (4:00 hrs) and ending at midnight.
I made these "chronodexes" in 2,5 cm and 3 cm size in order have a stamp made out of it. That's the one you can see in blue stamping ink in my filofax pages.
When talking to Graham Rhind, he mentioned that something he doesn't like is the difference in size in the hour slots between the inner and the outer rings. It does make sense if you are trying to mark or section quarter or half hours. The way I use it is less precise, and rather more of a coloring of the our blocks. I used to use arrows and lines to connect the colored sections with the detail of the meeting or the appointment. Then, actually seeing how Mr Rhind arranges his Zirkuluak in the pages, I thought of another way of working: putting the chronodex in a side of the day space, coloring the hour blocks corresponding to the appointment, and then writing down the appointment detail and coloring the first line of it to make the connection and helping explain the different blocks.
I'm still working on this new way of planning, so I'll probably keep you posted on how my new planning journey progresses.
May 30, 2022
A Question of Inks and Politics
The other day I was surprised to find a post or a tweet or something like that from Goulet Pens, an online fountainpen & ink store, that stated that due that it has been brought to their attention that the name and imagery of the Bernanke Red ink was racist, they where going to stop selling Noodler's products until they've got a satisfying answer from the owner, Nathan Tardif. I found that strange, and went to check my bottle (I have a bottle of Bernanke Red in my collection, along with Rome Burning, Atlantic Salmon, Firefly, Aurora Borealis, Apache Sunset, and 54th Massachusetts), and checked the lable.
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Apr 6, 2022
Art Journaling
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Mar 28, 2022
Study Blogging
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The curious thing about lables is that they often not match. One thing is how you see yourself and another is how other people see you. And it's not even a matter of your view of yourself against the collective view of the rest of the world. Take this snapshot of my IG feed: what do you see there? Maybe you see the coffee, or your eyes go to the cocktail, or to the journals, or you interpret the journals as books and notebooks and think these are study stuff. Or you see the witch-haul. Like interpreting a Tarot spread, different people with see different things and if asked to lable it something, there will be different lables including the all-catching "lifestyle".
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Nobody and everybody. Factually, physically speaking, there is only one me, but at the same time there are millions and millions of me, and I'm not talking of the multiverse, but the millions of me that live in the minds of the people who know me (that includes you, dear reader), and all those me-s are real, even if they are different from al the other me-s and the me that I know. There is no "right" about that, there is just "there is". So, my "me", the one I know and live with, is not a studygrammer, but someone who enjoys studygram and studyblr, but the me in my friend's head is indeed a studygrammer. And we both can coexist, even if in different planes.
Mar 6, 2022
What is really adding to your life?
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Feb 14, 2022
Love, love, love
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Jan 31, 2022
New Laptop
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Up to this day, all my computers - which have been laptops since 2001, when I bought myself my first laptop, a used IBM Think Pad, Lain - have been... how shall I call them? "Windows" laptops. Or PC laptops. Well, this time around I knew I needed something else, something that would give me the chance to remain fast more than 12 months, reliable and durable. I wanted a long term, long relationship laptop. And so I planned and invested in a MacBook. I asked more about it, consulted with friends, at the store, checked prices, and finally, on my brother's birthday, this year, I've got my Mac. His name isn't Mac, he's Virgil. I had to pick a name quite quickly, on the store (later on I realized I could have just given it my name, but... Virgil isn't me, just as my car, Nathaniel isn't me), and Virgil was what came to my mind. I certainly liked the Aeneid, and right then I wasn't thinking whether I should call it after one of my Gods (Mercury, Neptune or Odin). Yes, it could have been Minerva, but this laptop doesn't feel like a "she", but a "he". (Only my first two laptops have been "she", Lain and Iria. Both were IBM Think Pads).
I'm still learning how to use it, and there are like a gozillian things I still don't get, but I'm getting there. So far, I like it.
This year I started going to therapy with a psychologist a friend recommended me. Actually, I heard her talk about her, mostly for being a Pagan-friendly shrink. I have decided to start working on my shadow in order to start getting over and moving past recurring themes in my life and maybe also getting off the hamster wheel I feel I am in with certain people. There is so much my lovely mind can figure out, but then there are other parts I need professional help to figure out and to know how to start solving. Hope all that works well. I have been in therapy before, but now I expect something different. I want to work on issues I have found I may have rooted in unsolved family dynamics, that may not be helping me move entirely forward with my life, or that make me more sensitive to certain things than what I would like to be. And yes, I want to be able to let go of the deep, burning hatred I have felt at time at some people. Sure, feeling hatred is something I encourage in order to know your hating self, but I know plenty of my hating self, I don't need more, and hatred doesn't bring me any joy or any satisfaction.
That sounded strange, right? Well, think about it: some people seem to thrive when they are in a situation where they can gang on someone or something, when they can unite in hate, be in an "us vs. them" scenario. People who thrive in conflict and fight. I am not one of them. First of all, I am a Moonchild, a Cancer-born, and as such, I avoid conflict. Second, I actually find joy in emotions like love, happiness, mellow, harmony, soft, comfort, cozy and so on. I would fight if I have to, as I have proven time and again when I have faced situations and given voice to concerns and doubts while others cowered, but I rather cocoon, put on a record of jazz, were soft socks and read, knit or do something like that, in my blue couch, with a comfy beverage.
And so, I want to work out to reach my blanket-and-blue-couch-with-knitting state of mind.
Studies are going well. This is the last quarter of the Master's program, and... I feel expanded. (Ok, maybe that is Mr Jack Daniels talking through me ;) I had a night cap). Each day I try to pull two oracle cards and today I've got Jupiter. And yes, I feel less like I'm moving nowhere, and more like "I get it" with my thesis. I see the big picture, I see the point of it. I see the prospect and the promise. Last time my thesis tutor said: "I feel like I can expect more from you", as in, more as what he can expect from others, and that felt to me like my topic is going to take more time, BUT it will reach into something important. How exciting is that!?
My house of seven gables is also doing well, and I may be on the verge of adopting a new cat. Goodness Gracious, a decision I can make by myself! My house, my rules! I can become the cat lady! I love having my own house.
Slowly but surely, my life is rolling out, taking form. I see my sister-in-law getting into all sorts of fights with some neighbours, my brother trying to manage his life and family, my nephews and niece finding their path in life, my parents getting by... and I have a life that feels like all that cushy, fluffy, warm, nice comfy and cozy comfort, peppered with heaps of witchy, the kind of music I like and the kind of food and cooking I want. More than free and independent, I feel... whole. I feel me. I just want to feel more me, more... how can I say this? More unlimitedly me.
Jan 3, 2022
2022 is here
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Last year, for several months, I kept a cycle tracker, where I recorded my weight, body fat, water, muscle weight and bone weight daily based on my menstrual cycle and the Moon cycles. Eventually this tracker was making me anxious and turned out to be counterproductive for my health, so I stopped. In this same line I took out of my planner more than six different trackers for water, food habits, exercise, journaling, blogging... and something else. These I just couldn't really follow. I have used these trackers for years, since I was using the bullet journal system, but I never really used the infomation for anything. No matter how I grouped it or what I tried, it just wasn't adding any value to my life.